New Pic

Haha!! glad you like my new foxy pic.. hehe!!

I took it in the car the other day!

Tagged

I got tagged by Nicky!

The rules are:
1. Go into your archives
2. Find your 23rd post
3. Find the fifth sentence (or the closest one to it)
4. Post the text of your sentence in your blog along with these rules
5. Tag five other people

Here's what I said!
"I ate the burger and am now feeling really down.. totally rediculous I know!! It's only food!! I feel so stupid"

haha!! so funny!!

I tag: Luds, Suz, Brooke, Louchie and Phillipa... sorry guys!

OUT OF CONTROL!!!!

AAAARRGH!!!

(from an email I sent to Phillippa this morning)

"had a horrible food day yesterday! AAARGH!! I think it's to do with TTOM.. but that shouldn't be any excuse for me any more.. I have been doing this so freaking long!! I was at a conference and ate a muffin, 2 little bits of slice that was out for afternoon tea and too much free lunch (thats my problem... FREE! once thrifty always thrifty!!).. I thought.. thats ok Ash, just have a light dinner and you'll be fine...

so what did I do?! I went out to a party on an empty stomach and ate EVERYTHING in sight!! Oh.. and I feel so crap today... not like crap I'm down on myself for doing that.. I mean.. CRAP inside.. I had trouble hauling my fat butt out of bed and I feel so heavy and bloated and YUK YUK YUK!!!"

Nothing like a bad food day to get you back onto the straight and narrow... oh yeah.. and I didn't make it to the gym yesterday morning either!!

So here's the plan for the rest of the week..

Today: cutting right back to basics.. no extras coz I can't exercise today
b: 1/2 a diet yog 1/2 a banana and 1/3 cup natural muesli
s: 1 apple
l: lean cuisine.. beef and noodles
s: 1 banana
s2: handful mixed raw nuts
d: brown rice and veggies with hoi sin sauce

Thats it for today.. feel great haning planned!!

Tomorrow: Gym in the morning and a walk at lunchtime.. food basically like today but probably a sandwich at lunchtime..

Keep a runnin!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

feelin crazy!!

Boring post

Here is a boring report of my food today.. tracking tracking tracking... hmm boring (but worth it I know)

B- 1/2 cup Natural Muesli, 1 tub diet yoghurt, 1 small banana (good start)
S- Whoops, forgot
L- Edgel light lunch rice salad thingy
S- Apple and manderine and a skim hot chocolate
D- Lean beef burger from Maccas

I feel gross for not having enough fresh food.. I love cooking but I didn't have any time today.. or for the last few days... hmm.. yuk!

The burger was aweful!! I usually like them but I ate it sitting on the train and one bite into it I realised that they had put full fat cheese in it and about double the mayo so it was sloppy and disgusting!!!! I ate the burger and am now feeling really down.. totally rediculous I know!! It's only food!! I feel so stupid!!

On a brighter note, I went to look at a car we might buy tonight.. 1998 Holden Astra- dark green/blue.. not sure if we'll get it, but it was fun to go for a test drive!!

I am going to be joining HBC soon and am very excited! Have a little extra cash I didn't have before so I can afford it now.. it's really good coz I haven't been wanting to go to HBC dinners/walks etc coz I felt like a bit of a fake, not knowing if I would be joining soon.. It will be really good to build a new network of people for support to help me kick these last few kilos forever...

I still feel so fat! I can't believe it's only 10 kilos to go... it feels like about 30!! In case you can't tell, this is my monthly sooky lala post I do at TTOM.. hehe.. I am so pathetic... I really need to sleep!!

I think I'll wake up early and gym it up in the morning... 6am.. it will be a good start to the day and will hopefully stop me from entering sooksville tomorrow too!!

Weigh in 22/10/05

YAY!! Down again!!
Loss of 500g!
I'm now 86.6kgs and on track to attain my Nov goal of 85ks! Cannot believe the weight is still coming off!!

Plan for this week is to stick exactly to the plan!! hehe!! Because it works!! Woohoo!! I am officially off my 90kg plateu.. it took me soooo long to get off but now I am and the fat is melting away!! (well.. maybe not melting, but it is definately moving!)

I looked at my body fat % today and I have seen a huge difference since I have started running... Jumped straight from 44% to 42% skipping 43!! I know it is only a rough etimate but I'm excited!!

Ran at the gym today...

Attained my goal of running for 10 minutes.. that meant I ran for 1.45kms or something.. and I did that twice!! It is getting easier every time... I HATED running when I started but I am a convert!!

Feeling a lot better after a good night sleep.. was so emo last night about the guy's funeral..

Tonight I am going to a dress-up 1920s murder mystery night.. not particularly excited about going but it should be a bit of fun... I'm going as May West... apparently famous for being a slut.. hehe!!

Up and at 'em!!

Got up really early this morning... 4:59 to be precise.. Got a message from Luds last night to ask if I wanted to go to the gym this morning.. I was planning on going after work but I thought.. why not?

Stepped through the doors at fernwood at 5:59 and was on the treadmil warming up by 6:05...

I did weights (upped them a bit so it hurt).. Then I hopped on the treadmil when Luds arrived for 1/2 an hour.. then I got off and went on che cross trainer for 10 mins and then hopped back on the treadmil for the rest of the hour...

I jogged for 7 mins straight in the first treadmill bracket and for 6 mins in the 2nd on 8.5kms.

I always get to 1 km and want to stop even though my body is actually doing okay! I was telling myself "your body feels good, you don't have to stop" but something just made me stop.. I could have gone to 10 mins I am sure.. so that is my new challenge.. to run for 10 mins straight!

I have to weigh tomorrow... I am scared.. I haven't weighed for 2 weeks! hmm... I have been going well with food but TTOM is suppoed to be tommorow and I feel sooo heavy this afternoon...

I am a student on placement in the statewide aquired brain injury unit at Melbourne Citymission.. We work with people in the 1st 2 years after getting a brain injury so it is pretty full on.. many people have had strokes or attempted suicide and ended up with a brain injury.. Went to a funeral today.. we had a client die on Monday.. it was someone I have been working with directly.. it's really hard... He got this condition called CIDP (not sure what it is) and went to hospital and got his brain injury through a bungled surgical procedure and died 12 months later after degenerating very quickly... It was so sad.. he was only 50.

RIP MB

I am not a sluggard!

Okay well... I am back in the "alfalfa zone" (AJ term for the HBC girls)

Eating going well..
Food Today- Banana on wake up
Gym
B 1 wbix and 1/4 cup muesli with skinny milk
S ww cereal bar
L Leftover beef and veggie stirfry (YUM!) and a mandarine
S Rice wheels and Kiwi fruit
D Not sure.. I think curry and brown rice that John made today
S 1 bikky at work tonight (kind of a tradition)

Exercise:
Yesterday I did an hour of cardio including 2kms of straight jogging and then fat burn stuff
Today weights, 20mins cardio in the morning and a 45 min brisk walk at lunchtime

Feelin' particularly energetic today...

Better go put my energy into my work so I can go home on time today!!

Cute thing

I'm not dead... just felt that way!!

(this was an email I sent Luda this morning and realised I could save time by posting it here)

Oh matey!!

What a week/weekend!! I am still coughing up my guts but I am going back to the gym tonight if you want to come... Have been stuggling for the last few days with the food thing but the worst thing I had was a cupcake (...well.... a couple of cup cakes.. and they had cream.. okay so I should have sauntered past to the rice cakes and apples but they just looked so yummy... and they were for 2 seconds but then the guilt hit and they didn't taste so good after that... oh well) on Friday at this conference thing I went to.. But I was feeling so sick last week that I couldn't eat so that kind of evens things out... I was lucky to get 1/2 my caloric intake I was supposed to each day.. but now (nearly TTOM) I am sooo hungry during the day so here's what I'm eating to deal with it...

b. Porridge with 1 banana and skim milk
s. An apple and a ww. fruit bar
l. small tin of baked beans and 2 pieces wmeal bread
s1.(3:00ish) rice wheels
s2.(5:00ish) another banana
d. stirfry beef strips with veggies hokkien noodles
s. diet yoghurt and 4 apricot halves (tinned in nat. juice)

How does that sound... feel back on track, love that I can just pick myself up and move forward now rather than having a bad week and then feeling like it's all over and I'm a failure... coz I'm not!!

Weigh in 8/10

WOOHOO!!!!


Lost 1.1kgs!!

Now 87.1kgs..


Never going back!!!

Secret grandmother's business

I felt like I wanted to be looked after so I have come around to my nan's place and she has made veggie soup so I'm having some of that and wearing a big old wincheater of hers and feeling very comforted! I used to come to Nan's when I was sick as a kid and it has always been the most comforting place.. Ever since I was about 2 she's been able to find something for me to wear.. don't ask me how... magic sectet grandmother's business..

I am getting weighed tomorrow.. I think I'll have another loss even though I haven't done as much exercise this week.. I have worked out twice and been active walking to and from the station etc.. we'll see.. Food has been good except for the other day I wrote about so all in all I haven't done too badly.

I'mm gonna go and be sociable now...

Thanks Nan!!

Cough Cough.. ooh.. my throat hurts

I'm not very well today... about to go home early... Need a rest..

Whoopsies!

Damn!!........... damn, damn, damn!!!!



I was just waiting in the lunch room for my sandwich to toast and there was a big plate of food there from a meeting (the food that doesn't get eaten gets left for everyone)... So I decided to just have a little bit.. There were blueberry muffins cut into quarters and I had a piece of that.. then another quarter, then I had 3 full-o-fruit bickies, 1/4 of a pastry thingy (actually a bite then I threw the rest out), and a chock chip bicky.... all of which were aweful and I didn't enjoy.... So then my lunch was ready and I didn't feel like it coz I'd just eaten all that crap...

Oh well.. this doesn't happen very much any more.. At least I have worked out today.. I spent an hour doing cardio this morning.. my body's still tingling.

Weigh in!

I went to weigh yesterday and was slightly disappointed to see that I had only lost half a kilo over the last couple of weeks.... I was a bit down about it because I've been working so hard, but then my weight loss consultant looked at my body's pattern (losses, gains, my menstrual cycle etc) and discovered that I always have a big loss the week before my period (unlike many other women) and I ALWAYS gain like 400-500g in the week after and this week I actually LOST 500g!! So that proves the difference the extra exercise and diligence with food is making.. so even though I was initially disappointed I can see that it is still working... slowly but surely.. I also got measured and lost 3 more cms off my waist and one more off my thigh!! Yay!

Luda sent me a huuuuge long encouraging SMS this afternoon which has helped me to feel more motivated.. She reminded me to celebrate the (seemingly) small losses as I have lost another tub of butter from my body over the last few weeks!!


HOORAY!!